"I'm trying to envision myself as a cop and- I can't do it." But it'd be nice, wouldn't it? Not the army but something different from work. Helping people. Really, genuinely helping people nad having the authority to help them.

That'd be a nice change. A good sense of purpose. A reason to help people protect themselves, to dig around and find out what the hell makes them who and what they are here.

"...goddamn sign me up. I'm down. Where do I apply for that?"